Sam

Today was supposed to be a day for rushing to finish my painting—there are only a few days left. But instead, I spent the whole day looking for artists to participate in an event, only for it to be canceled due to certain reasons.

One friend told me to slow down and not rush, while another said, “Things go smoother when handled patiently.” But I just can’t help being impatient—I always want to finish one task quickly and move on to the next.

Still, I reflected on myself: Do I not understand society well enough? Should I learn to be more socially adept? I remember once, I tried to be more cautious with my words while speaking to a friend. He told me that doing so made me seem distant, that I was no longer the “Sam” he knew. I understood what he meant. But finding a balance—being tactful yet true to myself—is really difficult.

February is always a tough month for me. It’s my mother’s memorial birthday, Valentine’s Day, my teacher He’s memorial birthday, and my friend’s birthday… But amidst the sadness, the one happy thing today was receiving…

今天是該趕圖的，剩沒幾天。結果努力一整天都在找畫家參加活動。後來因為某些原因停辦活動。一位朋友告訴我慢一點不要急，一位朋友告訴我事緩則圓。我這急性子沒辦法。就想著快把一件事情做好換下一件。但我也簡討了一下自己，是對於這社會還不夠了解嗎？我該學習社會化一點嗎？記得有一次我對一個朋友說話時改變成謹言慎行，他告訴我說，我這樣就太見外了，也變的不是Sam了。我懂。要圓融中庸真的好難。難過的二月，我母親的冥誕、又是情人節、又是何老師的冥誕，又是朋友的生日…..。難過中唯一開心的就是今天接到……